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It's Been A While, but I'm Back...

 
Can you say, “Impaired Immunity Responses”? I can, because I’ve had some, these last few weeks and I’ve heard them described and defined enough times to clarify their meaning and their pronunciation…
 
It’s been quite some time since I last set foot here in the web site, and even longer since I’ve logged a Blog entry, and in that time I’ve had a number of adventures . . . though misadventures would be a more appropriate term for them. I started out fine, at the end of last month, on November 30th, thinking and hoping to have come through the ordeal of surgery with flying colours, but then the first of a series of things went sideways and from that point onwards, it seems that the progression went surging forward like one of those endless, engineered cascades of falling dominoes. And so it’s been several weeks, I believe, since I last said anything in here, or anywhere else, about my condition, and that’s a situation that has to change here and now. Here goes, then, with a full report on the status of my health, past and present, and before I get into it I want to say a heartfelt “Thank You” to everyone who wrote to me, offering support and encouragement on the threshold of what I was facing.
 
We have known for three years (my thoracic specialists and I) that I had an indeterminate but clearly defined “mass” in my left lung that might or might not have been there since my boyhood. It resembled old scar tissue and for as long as we had been “watching” it—beginning late in 2009, it had appeared to be dormant. This year, however, in a routine CT scan taken at the beginning of November, there were definite signs of activity and growth in  the mass; sufficiently so for it to be redefined as a definite tumour rather than a simple mass. My specialists decided immediately to go in there and root the thing out as quickly as possible, while it was still dense, small and self-contained. The location of the thing, close to the outer wall of the upper lobe of my left lung, indicated that there was a good possibility of going in arthroscopically, through a series of small holes rather than a major incision, and extracting the entire lobe of the lung with the growth in situ. None of us could see any point in postponing the event once the decision had been taken and so the procedure was scheduled for the morning of November 30th. I presented myself at the hospital as scheduled and the operation was performed successfully, the lobe removed cleanly and precisely. Everything looked good and everyone felt optimistic.
 
Then, though, 48 hours later, something went wrong and my lung collapsed. I don’t remember anything about it by that point, but I spent the next eight days in Intensive Care. There was blood in my lung cavity and they had to get that out of there before they could attempt to reinflate the lung itself, and while the medics were struggling with that, I developed pneumonia, just to add a little spice to the mixture… I now know I was really sick for a while, because my wife was there all day every day for the entire time and I don’t remember seeing her once. And the word was out among my friends that I was in deep trouble (I live in a small community wherein there are few secrets) but as I said earlier, I have absolutely no recollection of anything during that entire period other than a few nightmarish flickerings at the back of my mind that I’ve no wish to acknowledge or explore… And that, in itself, probably says more about the experience than anything artful I could dream up.
 
Anyway, my specialists were magnificent; their efforts were successful, I started breathing again and we licked the pneumonia, so that I came through it all to find myself back in the general population of the hospital, where I spent several more days gathering my faculties and being watched by a horde of vigilant overseers to whom I’ll be grateful for ever. Funnily enough, those three or four days in the general ward now strike me as being longer than the rest of the time I spent in hospital, and they were days of great discomfort in which I was hooked in a dozen different ways to an entire array of machines and devices, from monitors to intravenous drips. I was full of plumbing, too, with two chest tubes inserted into my body—one from each of the two procedures I had undergone—and until all of that gear and paraphernalia was removed there was no question of my being released to go home.
 
Finally, though, the day came when, after one final, confirmatory X-ray, I was released, unencumbered by extraneous devices and showing only a number of incisions—all healing nicely—and a few sutures left over where they had removed the last of the surgical tubing/drains from my incisions. And I came home a week ago, thinking, “Hallelujah, free at last!”
 
Well, not quite free at last, as it transpired… And that’s where the phrase, “Impaired Immunity Responses” comes back into play. See, you can’t just go home after having a few pounds of flesh traumatically removed from your innards, and take up where you left off. It hurts too much, and you wouldn't believe (unless you've been there) just how much it hurts and how many varieties of hurtfulness the pains can use to present themselves . . . and for days on end, that's how it goes: pain, unbelievably intense at times, rapidly followed by sudden, utter exhaustion as you quickly learn what people are talking about when they speak of "hitting the wall". Hard as it might be to believe, reading that, I didn’t know that until I tried it. Thank God they gave me powerful medications to combat the pain and the strain! But even the meds caused problems of their own, because they, too, are toxic in their own ways, and the old body very quickly developed a mind of its own about what would, could, did and didn’t interest or engage it. And so I’ve been dawdling along, going from one low-grade infection—not dangerous but cumulatively debilitating—for the entire week since coming home... Couldn't sit upright, or stand for long; still can't walk far and haven't been able until last night to sleep lying flat.
 
I've been so sick I couldn’t even read, and that’s a major glitch, because I can’t remember ever having spent as much as a week without reading something and now I’ve been wordless for more than a month. I’ve had three books by favourite authors going since I came home and I haven’t been able to get involved in any of them. As for writing anything, I don’t think I have the words to describe how disinterested I’ve been in even thinking about writing anything at all. I managed to grind out a couple of short emails to various people, because I felt hag-ridden with guilt about being silent, but that has been the total extent of my output until this evening, and I can’t even identify why I’m able to write this tonight, unless it has something to do with the fact that I haven’t taken any pain medication since this time last night. That must be it, because I haven’t done anything else that’s different. I’m not going to be able to hold out much longer, though, because I can feel pain now that hasn’t been there all day today…
 
Anyway, the pathology report on my surgery came back yesterday: The growth was definitely cancerous and malignant, but it appears to have been tightly self-contained and removed successfully. There are no signs of contamination or infection in any of the surrounding lymph nodes, and the liver and kidneys are clean and clear, and all of that adds up to a conclusion that I have no need to undergo either radiation or chemotherapy, and that I should be back to health and fully functional in six weeks’ time. That six weeks is a time period that everyone keeps emphasizing, insisting that I have to take it easy from now until then and give my old frame time to heal itself. But that’s it: if all goes well (and I intend to make sure that it does) I’ll be back in charge of myself by the end of January and striding forward from there, I’ve lost a bunch of weight that I couldn’t afford to lose in the first place, so my priority now is to build up my strength and my haemoglobin, exercising every day, and to regain the weight and muscle tone I’ve lost while concentrating on getting back to fitness.
 
Of course, I’ll be under the eye of the microscope constantly from now on, with ongoing supervision every three months for a couple of years, then semi-annually for another couple and once a year after that. But hey! I’m now a lung cancer survivor and I want to tell the world it feels good! 

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andersm's picture

Jack,
I can't tell you how happy I am to see your presence here - checked your site first thing this morning, like I do several times a day - and here you are!   Live and in colour!
 
So cancer looked at you, you stared back and stared it down.  Not least of all I'm sure you were damn angry this bloody thing got in the way of important things you need to do - unfinished business!
 
Well, you're here and I am sitting in my robe with my first cup of coffee and lifting it in salute.  Well done, Legate Whyte.  Decurion Anderson is ready to march with you.  :-)
 
*monstrous hug and a twirl around the floor - gently*
 
Marlene

Marlene
"How you do anything is how you do everything."

andersm's picture

Dear Jack,
I know what you mean when you say sometimes there are no words that will suffice, so I am simply offering prayers for you, along with waves of compassion.
Affectionately,
Beth Shope

Marlene
"How you do anything is how you do everything."

Splynter's picture

Jack!
 
Glad to hear you are doing much better and things are looking good! Take it easy and let things progress as nature intended in regards to the healing.
 
Your accounts of the previous weeks adventures has brought back ( buried ) memories of my own, of a similar situation. The reasons for it were vastly different from yours but the methods to "fix" me, seem to be very much the same. Having gone through it, please don't push yourself. I did. And being a stubborn git...( it's a genetic thing! But you know that. : ) I ended up doing more damage that required even greater intervention on the part of surgeons etc. to fix it. Don't go there! It's not worth it.
 
Take your time, enjoy your rest as best you can. You'll be up and about in no time, but let your body decide when the time is right for that. Not your head.
 
All the best!
 
John

Cathy's picture

Jack,
 
Glad to hear that, although everything did not go as well as one would have hoped it would have, that the prognosis for a full recovery is very promising.
 
My uncle had much the same diagnosis when he had surgery to remove a cancerous tumour from one of his lungs.  The softball sized tumour was completely self-contained, and no chemo or radiation was necesssary.  It's been over 10 years now, and he's still cancer free.
 
Needless to say, he gave up smoking.  He'd been a heavy smoker for years.  I think he felt himself quite lucky to have caught it when he did, and that was only due to a work injury that required a chest X-ray.  It was that X-ray that uncovered the existence of the tumour growing in his chest cavity, along with several broken ribs.
 
Anyway ... glad to hear you're on the mend.  Here's to being able to celebrate Christmas with your family, and not having a big question mark hanging over your head.
 
Cheers,
Cathy

As I said in an earlier post, do us all a favour and concentrate on you and yours.

Thanks for taking the time and trouble to update us, I'm sure we all appreciate that.

You might not have read, but you can be read TO.  I listen to audiobooks while I drive to work (Rebel, being one of yours - OK Forest Laird).  Even if you fall asleep, just 'rewind' to where you remember it last.
 
Congratulations and a huge well done for having the PMA.  It works wonders and without it all the medicine in the world can't win.
 
Bye for now

Best wishes

Brian

Fifer's picture

 

 
It's good to know you're making progress on your journey back to 'the land of the living', Jack. You're the best possible Christmas present your family and friends could receive this year. After my own cancer surgery my hubby reminded me of what his doctor had once told him, and I pass it along to you: "Listen to your body." Be patient with yourself and take all the time you need to fully recover.
Wishing you a blessed (and restful) Christmas!
Carol 

lolvickib's picture

So good to hear from you!  I heard music in my mind when I saw that you had posted an update. 
Recovery from any kind of surgery, not to mention one that had complications, is a time consuming and frustrating time.  I know what you mean by not being able to sleep.  When I had my surgery, I felt like a rotisserie chicken, because I couldin't find a way to get comfortable enough to get into a deep sleep.  This will pass.
I call cancer treatment, "slash, poison and burn".  I'm very glad to hear that you aren't facing more treatment.  The time for healing seems endless, until you look back and go, "Cripes, it has been eight years clear!, Where did the time go!"
You'll find as you can wean yourself off of the pain meds, that your interests and concentration levels will increase, as will your appetite.  I only wish I could send you a few extra pounds.  Christmas with all the goodies should make it easier to recoup some of that lost weight.
I'm sitting here, with my "Jack Whyte" mug, sipping Celtic Twist tea rejoicing that you are on the mend.  Continue to heal and be well my friend.
Warm and gentle hugs to you and Beverly
Vicki

Eric Rappe's picture

I am so glad to hear that you are doing better Mr. Whyte. I feel lucky to have read your books, and honored to have traded emails with you in the past. Take your time, and get well! You are in my thoughts every day!

andersm's picture

Jack,
I was delighted to read your personal health update this morning on your blog. I'm doubly delighted to be able to look forward to hearing you belt out the hippo song next year in Surrey.
Good health and well wishes for a swift and complete recovery,
Annee Brizo

Marlene
"How you do anything is how you do everything."

What a bumpy sea you've been on. May it be smooth sailing from now on.
Wishing you and yours a peaceful, pain-free Christmas.

Nancy B's picture

Wishing you and yours all the best for the holidays and happy to hear you are on the mend. Try not to overdo at Hogmanay.
Cheers and Bright Blessings
Nancy

Nancy

Great news! So happy to hear you are on the road to health and strength. Be patient and mend well.

LeitoraViciada2's picture

I hope you are fine now.
I worried so much about this post, but I read that you overcame the problem and I'm calm now.
I'm hoping and praying that you are completely recover.
Please let us know about.
My affection for you is immense. I love you.
Tatiana from Brazil (@LeitoraViciada2)
Sorry for my weak English.

LeitoraViciada2's picture

We miss you, please notice us, Jack. Lots of love.

I have been hoping you would recover as quickly as possible, although I knew it would take some time. I am sorry to hear about the "complications" (I just shuddered) but glad that you overcame them and are at home. Mend and stay well! I  am selfish enough to hope you will make When Words Collide 2013. Then, I would get a chance to say hello personally. Again, thank you for the great stories and conversations.

John Archer

LeitoraViciada2's picture

Hello, Jack, I hope you be better 

lolvickib's picture

Hi Jack,

I'm toasting your continuing progress with high octane coffee in my over-sized Jack
Whyte Coffe Mug from Surrey.

Sending some "get well" fairy dust your way,

Ginny McQueen

Jack Whyte's picture

Thanks, Ginny:
 
If that's the same mug I'm thinking about--the one with the four caricatures on it--than we have a "Snap" moment, because I'm doing the same thing as I read/write here...

Cathy's picture

I'd love to see pictures of these coffee mugs.

lolvickib's picture

The image is from Jack's memoir 'Forty Years in Canada' on page 150.  We asked permission of the artist to use the image (we, being the Ladies of Lallybroch) and were given a one time only permission to put it on some coffe mugs.  Some of them didn't turn out (very minor flaws),and so those of us in the loop were lucky enough to have one too.  Michelle, from the Authors Attic was the person to have them made.  I'd post of picture of mine, but it resides in Rio Rancho, NM, where it gets well used. (I am a tea addict!)
We are heading south soon, and I will try to remember to take a picture of it to use as my ID picture! *G*

Surrey Writers

The International Surrey Writers Conference is coming up October 24-26, 2014 in Surrey, BC, Canada. Last year, members of the Forum here lead by user andersm presented to Jack the items pictured including a leather bound collection of stories from readers about Jack and his work.

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On the eve of the vote for Scottish independence, Gobal Okanagan TV caught up with Jack on his home golf course.

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